How to get through meals-

How to get through meals- 

First, I'd like to make it noted that I am not a professional in psychology, psychiatry, or nutrition. I am instead an anorexia teen that can make it through some days without a slip up (eating wise) and other days, where all I can think of is calories and limiting to 1,300 a day. This number may be healthy to older people, who have slow metabolic rates, but not me. This post, blog, and website, is to share some of the insight that I have on eating disorder recovery, because after multiple different treatment centers, I have learned a lot of helpful, and not so helpful, skills. 

So, when you stare at a plate of food during meal time, thoughts of EDB's, eating disorder behaviors/urges, may go through your head. "Separate the food!" "Eat slow." "Spit bites out." And for my the most loud voice, "Don't touch you lips to that fork!" All of these serve a function, whether it be control, for 'happiness', for that perfect body so you can be 'happy.' Well, none of that is TRULY possible. You are slowly losing yourself in an addiction, that can kill you. That is not happiness or control. That happiness of being pretty and thin, well that never comes around. It is never good enough, so instead of wasting your time and effort you have to eat. 

Eat for your health, friends, family, a career, happiness, and life. And if that doesn't seem good enough for you in that moment, don't think at all. Simply just eat, but don't bing or purge after or during. Do one simple function and eat. 

Another helpful tool is eating with someone you love and trust. Talk about other things that food or your body. Talk about happy things or things you want to do today or have done. Be in the moment, it can be from talking, watching tv, or listening to music. Whatever it takes for you to put the food in your lips and sallow an adequate amount. You know whats right for you, food is love for your body. It needs it to stay warm and function well. 

Think about these things and give them a try. I know that they help me whenever I need that push in the right direction. 

With love, Alexis